Not koi - If i keep these emotions inside for one more day i might fucking lose it

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Don't say that you want me
I know you’re lying
I wish I could be yours
But I know I'm dying
I always said I'd
Die ‘fore I’m old
You think I'm lying
All I want's control
I think I wanna stay here
But I can't get old
Think I wanna stay here
But can't have a home
Daddy doesn't love me
I say I don't mind it

Don't say that you miss me
You had every chance to
Come clean of the feeling
But knew it would kill me
Such a pretty face
With your fucked up teeth
A lilac heart
Pierced with arrows of green
So I say come find me
You think I don’t mean it
So I say come find me
I hope that you hate it
My body posed
The most grotesque
Is that what you wanted?
 
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The song "Not koi" delves deep into the raw and tumultuous emotions of a person grappling with unrequited love and inner turmoil. The lyrics express a sense of desperation and longing, as the protagonist struggles with the conflicting feelings of desire and rejection. The singer laments the lies and betrayal of a lover, while also acknowledging their own self-destructive tendencies. Themes of control, abandonment, and self-hatred permeate the song, painting a poignant and haunting portrait of a soul in distress. The visceral imagery and dark, poetic language evoke a sense of unease and vulnerability, creating a powerful and emotionally charged listening experience.

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