Not koi - I'm not laughing
No talking now
Lay on the ground
Thinking about what’s next
Something I said
Flew over your head
I wish I was dead
But please don’t count me out
Waiting, i’m waiting, i’m waiting, just waiting to die
I can’t even say why
Bury my bones
Before they get cold
Let me rest neath a willow
So my spirit will hold
I’m not laughing
It’s just my friends
They’ll clap at your jokes
They’ll cheer through your prose
Could you, would ever think about me, when you’re falling asleep?
I’m sure the news was painful
So now I lay here
Covered from my head to my toes
Masking my face
Seal tight round my nose
I hope you don’t see me
Just a corpse and their note
I guess my time’s just up
Hands stiff around my throat
Song Description:
edit soundcloudThe somber melody and melancholic vocals enhance the melancholy mood of the song, creating a sense of unease and introspection. The repetition of the phrase "I'm waiting, just waiting to die" underscores the feeling of hopelessness and the desire for an end to their suffering.
As the song progresses, the narrator reflects on their relationships with others, feeling misunderstood and unappreciated. They long for understanding and connection but feel ultimately alone in their struggles.
Overall, "Not koi - I'm not laughing" is a poignant and raw exploration of emotional pain, longing, and the search for solace in a world that feels cold and indifferent.
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Clean box, put your food down on the floor now Something I can’t even think about Is where you’ll go when I’m gone Sleeping, drifting so softly on top of me As my body sits and
Not koi - Desynced lyrics
Spent an hour trying to write a text To the only person who knows what’s next Recently i just feel so sad Wanna leave, never coming back Could ya tell me what it means to be
Not koi - Trial and error
Put my brain on a hard drive Bring me back to life I’ve been fighting for so long Searching for compassion that I lack You can eat those words now Put everything you
Not koi - On your own
What the fuck am i supposed to do when everything seems impossible? Maybe I keep it moving on but that's just another obstacle Every word that i write is just something i wanna say to
Not koi - Polar bear
I wish I was dead I blew a kiss to the gun buried under my bed This isn't normal says a stupid voice From a dusty corner in my head It comes in waves It always feels the
Not koi - The great depression
Hey you mother fucking son of a bitch How dare you speak about it like you know Without strife or strain Each leg keeps moving Always deviating from the path So
Not koi - Bodybags
Koi:: Nothing left Think you know what's coming next My bitch, she made a noose And it’s special for my neck I might just get the knife And I might go for a ride
Not koi - Elegance
Fall down You won't ever come around Just Like a tree in the forest i won't make any sound You’re gorgeous I thought that i said this I don’t ever wanna make it
Not koi - Bellyache
Find me Bleeding out in the back seat Spliff still in between my teeth I kinda figured you’d leave me Chase me Down the halls and highways Goddamn i’m stuck in
Not koi - Icarus
I dunno i think i’ve been drinking too much lately Cuz i been feeling kinda crazy Baby call my phone, tell me you want to come home I think i might be better all alone I’ve
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